5 months of suffrage

In October of 2013 I moved in with my ex husband in an effort to reduce or combined bills. This was to make things easier for the kids and for each of is to be able to afford to raise them appropriately. Epic fail!!! Either way I have just recently severed ties and we are now living apart again. During the time of or cohabitation, my poor bonsai tree died. I think it was because I was a lot depressed and wasn’t giving anything very much attention. We are all now on the road to recovery. Week one in the new place and it’s already starting to green up.

Yesterday was a good day

I woke up in a good mood yesterday. The same drama with the children. They decided that they would like to end the school year on a Friday instead of the following Tuesday. This is fine, they already got their report cards and they are all going to the next grade, plus I could never see Marco again and that would be fine. I picked them up from school and brought them over to their dads house. After dropping them off I lounged at home, listened to some music and just relaxed. I had a date last night… with him and his kids. I know, kind of quick to meet the kids but I agreed to go to the drive-ins. I was a nice night. His children are pretty cool and we connected a lot more. One family meeting down and two to go. He has to meet my children and them all the children need to meet each other.

If we decide to further our relationship, we must figure out how to combine two families of 4. Two of the children have similar names. Five of the children’s names start with “D”, as it stands, in July, there will be three 7 year-old (mine) an 8 year old, a 9 year-old and, a 10 year-old. Tht is a lot of kids! They are all bi-racial and they are all very energetic. Oh and they are all boys.

My eyes are wide open

I looking for the possibility of moving on, moving forward with my life. I am completely lost with all things now that my eyes are open to the world. I got a flat tire today. I stood in the rear of my vehicle not knowing the first thing about changing a tire, was never my thing. I gazed around me and noticed 3 State trooper cars and 1 undercover truck, a k-9 unit car and 2 city cop cars, none of which attempted to assist me in this trying time in the morning I phoned an old friend, careful to speak loud enough about my challenge so that I would be overheard, still nothing. As I’m kneeling on the rough cement, in my brightly colored dress, assessing the situation, a good, no, great knight in shining work pants can to the rescue. The stranger emerged from his vehicle grabbed his jack and came swiftly over to me and my car. He knelt down and began to place his jack under my vehicle. I was extremely perplexed as to why this strange man was so apt to assist when the men in blue were not. I plan on adjusting this sad reality upon becoming a lady in blue.

I got a lot of things done in work today, not really very much to do with work, more to do with my other businesses. I was trying to get a coworker to take a second look at the famous whatif monster

 

He is super cute and can teak kids that things will be okay. He posted the picture on his Facebook, but his wife said that he could not get him, and so he didn’t. I love the whatif monster and the book that goes along with him. I’m super excited about the possibilities that this book thing has to offer, I just don’t know how to get it started i guess. On that note, I’m tired.

September Already? Summer Just Flew By!

September Already? Summer Just Flew By!.

I came across this post because it is a blog that I follow. Reading this post made me realize how fast the summer has gone by. The boys and I did a lot of things this summer, but not really as much as I had hoped. I was half expecting that things would go exactly as planned, but as always there has been glitches.

I have had a very trying summer. I worked for the postal service, which was fun, and ended early due to a lack of better judgment. I had thought that he, yeah you know, and I would be happily living together and running the world by now; this is not the case. I thought that life with dealing with co-parenting with the ex would go well; it hasn’t. I thought that maybe, just maybe things would be great. I can, however, deal with the fact that things are just OK and will be getting better.

I have seen a great change in the saga of the guy and I. He has since apologized for the things of the past. I figure that we can just start a new and keep it moving. I don’t think that what has happened between us was done intentionally anymore. I hope that I am right in my thinking.

School has started for the boys, and will start for me on Tuesday. I am two short semesters away for obtaining my associates in science.

 

What a day

I was going to talk about day two if the wine shop but that will have to be postponed until later because I’m tired from being in the emergency room last night.
My oldest soon has a swollen face! I’ve been working for the past two days, literally! 9-9 then 11-8 then 9-6 concurrent! My sons father called me at work on day two and told me his face was swollen. Her said his nose hurt, then woke up with swelling in tears. Father says it was getting better so i stayed at work. When i picked him up after work, my heart broke for him and i had too find our what was wrong. We went to his doctors who sent us to the urgent care across town. The urgent care sent us to the emergency room. We sat in the emergency room for hours! They should really fix that, he’s six!(different gripe all together)
In the emergency room we got through quickly, once we got to the room we saw a doctor quickly. after seeing the doctor things slowed way down.
We finally got to ex-ray for his pictures and returned to the room. he had to use the bathroom so we went, when we returned, the door was closed and a nurse said we had to go to another room our wait in the hall! I know, really? HE’S SIX! The doctor finally, at 11, said nothing was broken and to put ice on it.
First day of school today and i didn’t send him, i didn’t want him to go through the, “what happened”, thing. That would hasn’t made his year bad.
Today i work for another two days straight and I’m not looking forward to it. Maybe gray will visit me at Dorothy’s house.

Over the top toddlers

I have been obsessed with toddlers in tiaras this summer, something about the psychology of the parents really fascinates me. There has not been one show that I haven’t looked at the mom and said; yeah she’s living vicariously through her child. This evenings toddler in tiaras went to a whole new level. The competition took place in Vegas, already racy, tonight. The show focused on a set of twins and two other girls, Kaylee and Elizabeth.
The twins were spoiled but the parents concentrated mainly on one of them, she’s gonna won, she’s the beauty the others the cutie, got her a pink stretch hummer! Yeah crazy!
Elizabeth was spilled by the grandmother who happened to have spent anywhere between 80-100 thousand dollars of her career. Tonight was no exception, she didn’t want too deal with traffic, so they took a helicopter!
Kaylee’s dad build a huge genie bottle which his daughter fell out of and off off the stage!
None of them won grand supreme this time but Kaylee won mini supreme and Elizabeth won personality supreme and the twin that the parents didn’t encourage or congratulate won queen of their age group. Congratulations Bella! 🙂

I gear got these girls and their self esteem. I believe that these beauty contests encourage outer beauty and not inner and these girls will grow up thinking that they’re only good for their appearance.

TV doesn’t make it easier,because that’s how you get on TV and everyone wants their 15 minutes. We as society make it worse by watching, keeping the ratings up and even sometimes participating.

Lost for words and Ideas

I am completely stuck again. It seems like I am always saying this very same thing. I think I use these times to kind of focus on the problem by writing it down and then I can work through the problem and come up with a viable solution.

Here is my problem; My youngest nephew has a problem. I noticed it as a problem a few years back but we always seem to laugh it off. He will, in the middle of the night, go through my house and eat every snack item in sight and hide the evidence. When he is confronted on the issue it is complete denial. He would do this so often that I had stopped buying so many snacks and have to continuously tell him what not to devour. It had gotten so bad that, one day when I was cleaning in the laundry space I looked inside of a cooler and found a slew of wrappers from all the candy that I keep around the house and disallow my kids to constantly eat. I again asked him, he again denied. I would explain to him that we live in this house everyday and none of these mysterious things happen until he comes. My kids even complain because, “mom, he’s gonna eat all the snacks”. I feel bad but I do not buy as many snacks as I used to.

Because I don’t so those things any more, he would go through my personal things and find any candy or gum and eat it. He would then leave wads of gum on the floor, the table, the counter, anywhere. One day I was getting ready to leave the house and as I went to turn out the light, I noticed that a candy man, made of fully wrapped gum, tootsie rolls, and a box of raisins, was now just a box of raisins hanging from a string, again denial.

My sitter had asked me where her toothpaste was, and why her flashlight was taken apart and batteries removed, I had no answer but him. I wouldn’t ordinarily jump to a conclusion but earlier that day I picked his head phones up from the floor and went to place them in his bag when I noticed that he had taken more than half of my flosses; the single ones. I had also noticed that there was a dismantled flashlight on the bathroom counter and one on the kitchen counter.

Tonight he is here again, short notice and I had purchased some snacks and stuff which I quickly hidden in the pantry. As I am readying myself to go to the store, something told me to go to the laundry room because I had thrown a silver certificate on the top shelf when I found it somewhere strewn about the house. I searched and searched and the certificate is gone. I know it doesn’t have legs, it’s a dollar bill. My kids are too short to get up there. I asked him to keep an eye out for it, just so he knows that I know that it’s missing, he immediately went to the area that it was in, and said he would keep an eye out. I went to the store fully expecting that upon my return I would find the dollar in it’s place but know. I have though, gotten questions about it’s value and importance.

It’s a sad day.

When you finally find motivation to move on.

I finally found what I needed to so that I realized that my 2 year relationship was full of lies and deceit. Two years of being head over heels. Two years of worry for not. Two years of mistakes and hard lessons. I have finally learned from them. I am not selling anything to you but if you would like to see the once love of my life, head right over to

http://www.tagged.com/profile.html?uid=5443381405#fpt=2&fpa=pic

He signed of for this account 3 months after we were together, however we had been talking for 6 by then. He was last on 3 months ago which is about the time he was asking me to quit my job, move in, and start a family with him. He went so far as to describe the single family home he was looking at the day before he “disappeared”. His profession is so far from what he told me and he has about 459 female “friends” on this online profile which he said he was not allowed to have. I only wish that he would have been honest because I had a lot at stake and he knew EVERYTHING about me which makes me feel as if he used that information to his advantage. I do, however, believe in karma and so all will work out for the best.

Message to you, if you’re reading this, you should probably contact for a cease fire because the more time that goes by, the angrier I become. I just want you to look me in the eyes and tell me what I need to know. Plus I really want my stuff back. If nothing else please put my kids pictures in an envelope and drop them in the mail.

Sunday retreat

We escaped the madness and went to purgatory chasm this afternoon. It was a wonderful day today the heat was not horrible and the breeze was good.

They enjoyed the adventure and i enjoyed the fact thati can now take them anywhere without fear of them running in three different directions.

It would have been nice to have him with but no such luck.

Next week we’re off to fish

R.E.S.P.E.C.T what does it mean to you?

Last night I reached my limit with my semi-unwanted house guests. I say semi because one I hired as a live in nanny and the other is just a “surprise”. Last night the “surprise” asked me if he could use my car to pick his friend up and bring him here. He wanted to show him some things on the computer, and then they would have their other friend pick them up and bring them back so that they could work in the morning. If there is one thing that most people know about me, it’s that I do not like feeling like my space is being invaded, especially by strangers. I do not like to have strange over night guests, and certainly not when my children are home. He sensed the hesitation in my voice, so much so that he told me that I hesitated and what it was for. Reluctantly I agreed to allow this madness because hey, then they’d both be gone. They make themselves comfortable in the room and the time starts to pass, and pass, and pass. Before I knew it, I was still awake it was 11pm and this person was still in my home. I made noise about the house and listened to hear if they called their ride, I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up at 4am for work and found this person still in my home asleep and I was livid. No one asked my permission, and I was told they would be leaving, “how dare you?” I waited until I cooled down a bit because what I wanted to say was;

You fucking told me he would be gone and you lied, you didn’t get my permission and you both had better be gone when I get home from work. And you’re no longer welcome in my home!

Because I waited a while and then cooled to lukewarm this is more like how it went.

Pretty pissed you had that boy stay over. If you’d asked I would have told you I don’t like having strangers sleeping in my place especially cause I have kids. I would have even given you guys a ride back to Spencer myself if I needed to .

This I thought was very temped, very “let me tell you how I feel”, rather polite if you ask me. I think this was a reasonable request and concern that did not require any anger on either side. Believe it or not, this is the response I got in return.

Yeah, figured that out when you slammed the door 8 times. If I had any idea you would react like that, I would have had Bobbi Jo woken up to come get us, hell I would have walked. Suffice it to say it won’t happen again.

Let me get this straight, you are a guest in my home and inviting others to be guests as well and when I don’t find that acceptable you want to make it seem as if I am the one with the problem? How about a little respect for the ONLY one who would take your ass in, rent free, bill free, food free! I tell you, I get myself screwed every single time. Everyone takes my kindness for granted and I have got to put an end to it ASAP.

I repeat

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